i know this love is over
but no one can know how hard it is
to let you go
because loving you is loving death
and thats been the sweetest
its always been the sweetest
all the warnings in the world just made it sweeter
this deferred embrace
-but daddy always told me
dont leave the girl yr with
until youve found a new one
to take her place-
so what then?
healthy
i will love healthy
i will love myself
vitamins + vitamin water
regular exercise
a balanced diet
goodbye sweetness
goodbye measured tinctures of death
so boring
you wanna put a bullet in yr brain
some will read this + laugh at all the romantic drama
but they will never know the joy
of having a drink with you
or sipping strong coffee in yr stronger atmosphere
or reaching across to kiss you in the car
when the perfect driving song comes on
you drew my attention
to every breath i took
even as you brought them ever shorter
you made me feel invulnerable
inhaling my armor
a tiny glowing weapon in my fist
never alone walking in the dark
yr other lovers
sprawled across time + space
never made me jealous
there was always enough love
(death)
to go around
but this relationship needs to end
when i havent seen you for awhile
that first kiss feels so good
but midway through
i forget im kissing you
and we cannot continue this way
i need you the most when yr away
but when yr back
so quickly we take each other for granted again
this relationship needs to end
how could i love you for so long
+ have it go this wrong
ive been trying to get back that first year
for the last eight
got to get used to being haunted by you
so i will bury my love
go different places
see other people
+ deny that we were ever lovers
when i see you
i will look away
+ when i smell yr scent
i will block it out
+ on the long drive
i will reach for you
+ you wont be there
i love you
i will always love you
but i know this relationship has to end
what love
could possibly take its place?
